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Wedding Day!

We had a perfectly wonderful wedding at the River Oaks Theatre here in Houston.  Thank you to everyone that came out and to Tucker and Vanessa for their special roles in the wedding.  My bride,Amber looked like a little movie star as she walked down the isle.  The wedding was perfect and sweet.

Wedding Day at the River Oaks

 

Where have you f@#king been!?

I can’t remember the last time I updated this website. I guess a lot has been going on.

Now where to start? I guess the big news is I’m only 47 days from getting married. I’m very excited. If you’ve met her you know how wonderful Amber is and how happy we are together. I feel very lucky that my life has turned around as it has. She accidentally fell into my life and quickly stole my heart.

Let’s see,I had another birthday. I’m not a fan of birthdays but have been unable to stop them from occurring yearly since I sprung from my mother’s uterus. My only birthday gift this year was a ribbon that said “It’s my birthday –Show me your TIT’s”. A wholly appropriate gift from a fan at the show.

Work is about the same. New boss. Same client. I need a change that challenges me,but like so many other Americans out there I’m happy to have a job right this moment. I’d still like to get back to California,but with the economy as it is,I doubt that’s happening anytime soon.

I haven’t picked a camera up much. Don’t know. I always go through times where I have trouble expressing myself in a meaningful way. I want to paint again but can’t think of what I want to do.

Still doing Rocky,but considering retiring. I don’t want to be the three million year old guy standing up there. I still put a good show on,but I’d like to leave on top of my game.

Summer was pretty hot here in Texas. But not as humid so I actually did pretty well. Except for the transformer blowing a fuse behind the house the air conditioner kept the house at a very comfortable 80 degrees. (Editor’s Note:When it’s 110 outside,80 is pretty comfortable.)

I’m thinking it’s time to reinvent myself. Don’t fall back on what I’ve always fallen back on. Take some risks. I have a woman that loves and supports me. I can do anything I want.

 

Love and Marriage

Life is good.  Very good.  I’ve got someone special in my life and it’s gotten quite serious.  It just feels very right.  We’re pretty much polar opposites (although both we are both Virgos) she doesn’t drink much and she’s very religious.  Myself I still believe there’s a good chance I’m the spawn of Satan.

I don’t want to say too much,except that I’m happy.  Funny that.

 

Best Show of the Year!

Rocky! God damn that was an awesome show last night.  Best one we’ve had in a long while.  It just felt good.  Great audience.  Cute girl on my arm.  All was good.

 

Scars

I spoke to my brother for the first time since my dad died,its probably been 10 years. My brother is 8 years older than I. My mother has been very emotional recently. Not like herself. My brother asked me to call him to talk to me about the situation.

My brother really didn’t even waste time asking me how I’ve been or mention my divorce.  He went straight in and started complaing about mother.  He starts with feigned compassion yet there really is no love or concern in his word or tone.

I have never understood their relationship. Neither one of them has been willing or able to cut the apron strings. They have created this ugliness that passed unhealthy about 10 years ago. Once again they’re trying to drag me into middle to moderate.

I really didn’t have much of a father or mother. My memories of my brother are him yelling or being abusive in one fashion or another.  I really don’t know if my brother has been happy a day in his life. But I know he’s been a bully.

My mother has spent the vast majority of her life trying to placate his anger.

It is an ugly cycle that will repeat until one of them is dead. 

I tried to talk to my brother but his anger and frustration quickly rises the moment I don’t agree with his assessment of the situation.

I refuse to get mixed up with it. I’m still not completely healed from the divorce and I don’t have time or patience for unreasonable angry souls.

I know that even with the death of one of them,there will be no peace.

 

Lavender

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Went to the big comic convention. While dressing my Muse for the steampunk ball I found this satchel on a hanger. I smiled and was mindful of the little things the ex did ,that to this day remind me of her feminine ways.

 

Odd dream

I had this dream about having a long talk with Johannah’s mother. Not sure where we were but it wasn’t a home I recognized. The talk was cordial.  She seemed sad as we talked about life,marriage and such.

Before long her mother turned into a black man wearing a suit yet we still talked about the marriage. We were standing outside on the roof of a downtown building.

I asked him if there was anyway to get Johannah back and he looked at me as he slipped beneath the water of the pool we suddenly were in and said,“I’m sorry to be the one that has to tell you no.”

I felt sad but ok with it.

 

Gus Rampant

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Work Day

I just had an excellent meeting. I rocked. I knew my data.  I was able to show how my work was relevant to the work being bid on.

Hopefully this will be my ticket out of Houston.

Now I need to just get some vacation.

 

So true . . .

Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.

~Kahlil Gibran